Regimenting. I feel like that should be the watchword for the current
times. I know everyone and their cousin has been talking about covid
lately, but it really is such a totalizing situation; you can't escape
t, even in escapism. But in times like this, when everything has been
and all those little stresses that life likes to pile on, that I'm
nearly a stranger to myself sometimes. The old patterns, the old habits
(good and bad) have fallen to the wayside, and what I'm left with is a
life that rarely feels like my own.
Some of this has been good, to be sure, I've been afforded many
blessings in all this turmoil and I try to keep those in perspective.
But at the same time, I have lost some of the qualities I once respected
n myself. To put it bluntly, I've grown lazy with myself. I don't
excercise as much anymore, I don't socialize with friends as much, I
Lately though, I hve been having more and more that "something's really
To that end, I've resolved to start a new approach, and take the reins
back to my life, at first in little ways: getting back to excercising,
easier to pick up bad habits than it is to put them down again, and I
know that I will optimistically be half as successful as I intend. It
feels almost perverse to say that the external turmoil has really helped
me shed a light on the almost spiritual turmoil I have been lapsing
nto, but it is true. I've never been one for setting goals and
more concrete) that should help guide me along this path:
* make more time for myself, to take inventory and reflect inwardly
* stop gorging myself on sweets and "foods of convenience" and stick
* get back in the rhythm of excercising daily or near daily
* keep up with my studies so I can pursue my passions, rather than idle
time wasting
* be a bit more stubborn when it comes to my wants, don't just let
of diary like this phlog is already making me feel better, letting me
-Vx
